There are periods in a person's life when everything seems to come to a standstill. Where you wake up every morning feeling like there is a heavy blanket over you. I knew that feeling all too well. For years, I fought a depression that kept distancing me from myself. My education and work as a medic gave me structure, but deep inside I felt empty. I tried therapies, I took medication, but nothing really brought me home to myself. Until I found my way to magic truffles.
How did I find this path?
It was a friend who gently told me about microdosing. As a medic, I had read about it, of course, but I had never seriously considered it. The idea that a natural product known for hallucinatory experiences could actually bring clarity in very small quantities touched something inside me. Maybe it was hope, maybe despair. But I decided to follow my heart and give it a try.
Being a doctor, I first wanted to know what was behind this process. I read studies and discovered that truffles are a complex natural product, with a wealth of substances that together trigger something special in the brain. The idea that science confirmed this gave me peace of mind and confidence to take my first steps.
The first days with microdosing
I started with a simple schedule: a small dose of truffles every two days. The very first morning I felt it, very subtly in my stomach. A tingling sensation and even momentary restlessness due to something happening inside me. As if a small window was opened and fresh air flowed in. Colours seemed softer, conversations felt less heavy and I suddenly felt like going outside. I remember touching a tree in the park and thinking: I feel you again. And I'm really not a tree-hugger, if that's what you might think.
Slowly, the fog in my head cleared. The gloom was still there at first, but space was created. Space to breathe, to feel, to choose again. I began to experience my body as a part of me again, not as a burden I was dragging along. It was as if the truffles were whispering: you can be there, exactly as you are.
What changed in my relationships?
My loved ones saw it happen. They said, "Your smile is back." Or, "Your eyes are shining again." That touched me more deeply than I can describe. I noticed that I became more open, softer in my words and present instead of lost in my own thoughts. New layers of understanding and tenderness also emerged in my love relationship. Microdosing didn't solve anything all at once, but it made me receptive to connection and love. (My husband now takes it too.)
From survival to life
Now, months later, I dare say: truffles saved my life. At first, I was empty inside and distant from myself. I could no longer enjoy myself because there was a dark black cloud around me. Now I can be happy again and laugh at myself. In hindsight, I took myself and everything far too seriously. Life is open again and the sun is shining inside me again. It is as if I remember who I am.
Truffles saved me not because they are a magical solution, but because they helped me remember. They took me out of survival mode and brought me back into life itself. From being cut off to feeling connected, from emptiness to meaning.
What can you take from this?
Maybe, like me then, you feel stuck. Maybe you are looking for a gentle way to reconnect with yourself. Microdosing can be a guide, not a quick fix but a silent hand that invites you to feel again. It requires attention, respect and openness.
For me, it was a way back to myself. A reminder that I am not broken, but whole. That nature often gives exactly what we need when we are willing to really listen. It also changed my outlook on magic truffles immensely and I hope yours will too.
In the Netherlands, we, or perhaps I myself, have not yet reached the point where I want to endorse with my real name. Until then, just call me Elisabeth.
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Thank you Elisabeth for sharing this with us.
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